by Tony Chen

I've been avoiding this post for some time now. It's one of those topics that is sensitive, potentially uncomfortable, and definitely has multiple layers.

So, there's a lot of ways I could address this - I could writes pages upon pages about my experience as a Chinese kid growing up in southwest Virginia. I could write about how Chinese families typically view hospital administration as a career (though my family is very supportive). I could even talk about how I'm probably hypersensitive about being the only non-Caucasian in town hall meetings.

I just deleted a couple of paragraphs. All I'll say is that most of the "racism" I experience is self-imposed and lives in my head only. And I'm really enjoying my job, my progressive organization, and the fact that my path is a path less traveled for someone of my background. Mostly, I want to hear about other people's experiences with paths less traveled or being in the minority - please share in the comments. or if you prefer, send me an email (tony at hospital impact dot org) and I can post your experience completely anonymously.

UPDATE: A few anonymous comments I've received so far:

"In fact, the only time I've caught even a whiff of racism is on the odd occasion that an LCD projector doesn't work right and some people instantly look to me to fix it, rather than put in a call to IT."

The discrimination I sense in hospital administration seems to stem more from clinician vs. non-clinician conflicts ...which is likely another topic entirely.

I've worked very hard to establish a sterling repuation in the organization, but don't feel absolutely sure that race didn't play some part in some way, shape, or form. My hypertension comes more from feeling like I better do an amazing job than being the only non-Caucasian, but I often take notice of the fact that I'm the only non-Caucasian.

With much introspection, I've come to realize that I've experienced very little racism in the hospital.

Hospital administration positions are still dominated by middle-aged Caucasian men. The reality is that hospitals are conservative and risk-adverse organizations and senior level hospital administrators are almost viewed like elected officials. So it's difficult to have a minority or homosexual be the "face" of such an organization.

Just like any other ethnic background, a lot of Asian-Americans are most 'racist' or biased against their own race

I lack the 20+ years of experience of seasoned professionals in this field, and I am still working on completing my graduate degree. Strike one. I am a female, which carries certain stereotypes in the professional world, such as being too compassionate for co-workers, or “caring” too much about my work (hey, I’ve got passion, what can I say?). Strike two. To top it all off, I’m trying to prove to colleagues that not only is marketing a viable and fascinating field of study in and of itself, but also that it has important implications for the future of this industry. Strike three.

I feel as if this career path is reminiscent of grade school gym class, where I didn’t fit in and was always picked last for dodgeball. But, like you, I’m beginning to realize that most of this nonsense is all in my head.